I Greet The Indwelling Peacemaker.
Today’s “Pay Forward” gift is – Peace At Last. My Hero, Jesus did not use the “drug” guilt and punishment. My created higher self, I pray, may become at all levels, in His image and likeness. Too much of my life has been wasted on defending my rights and the rights of the underdog, closing me off from the peace I longed for. I did not realize I was hiding my fears behind anger, trying the punishment or at least make the “bullies” feel guilt. I started fighting those who were unfair when I was fourteen years old. All the anger, self-pity I had been stuffing sprang forth. I began my guilt and punishing crusade. Due to my physical smallness, I would try to make my punishing appear as an accident, but when I started using tools of violence, my motive came out of hiding. Practicing A.A. spiritual principles set me on a path of peace, and an understanding of spiritual realities. However, I stuffed my violence and I made myself feel guilty and punished myself for any thought or act of violence. Years of feel good about punishing the wrong doers did not leave overnight. I had to come to the realization of the spirit of love within me, longing to be expressed. My awakening to our Father within and my created higher-self heals me. As I practice these spiritual principles, through the grace of a fearless peace, I can make a good difference. Thy Love, Thy Will be done.