I greet The Indwelling Source.
Today’s “Pay Forward” gift is – Bottom Feeder. Once again, I’ve reached my level of incompetence. It’s time for real change, like a spiritual transformation, calling for a complete surrender; the death of my personal “reality.” “My soul is exceeding sorrowful … O my Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me, nevertheless, not as I will, but as you will.” I tell myself that the most important mission, my heart’s desire is to be and to do our Father’s Love and Will 24/7, known and unknown. No matter how hard I try to consciously and consistently practice that, I fall far short. It’s time I accept that I am not, as my personal “reality,” ever carry that out, alone and unaided. Like every truly great thing in my life has come to me by grace, not works. “Every day is a day when we must carry the vision of God’s will into all of our activities” Alcoholics Anonymous page 85. Not my will but His be done. I am a workaholic, which gets in the way of my spiritual practice. How can I not know by now, after sixty-four years of trying, that everything of value is given to me by grace? Radical training has a place, to practice and share what has been freely given, as a channel, not the Source. I pray to be consistent in asking our Father to bless all of us, and do my little part. Thy Love, Thy Will be done.